.....

So I cried.


It's really getting harder and harder to breathe.


I missed you the most.

Matters of the Body

I am injured.

I am sick.

I am deprived of sleep.


I am ... so gonna drop dead any moment now.

Secrets of the Heart

What happens if love is not enough?


In the end, there isn't really a reason. It was as good as crawling out from a well, scratching against the strong concrete wall, desperately trying to move away, retreat to somewhere safe.

Pardon me. But this boy is overly emo now.

Yes you! Go away now. Go!

Studying

Damn boring stress lor...

There's this huge pile of notes I have yet to even lay my lazy eyes on... And I am busying myself with countless not-going-to-help-in-studies activities... like sports (am I being too hyper?) and lepak-ing at pasar malam, mamak, the local neighbourhood supermarket etc... (hey this place is pretty ulu ok?) Ah how can me be dissociated from gossip???

Swear to the Heavens, I have tried umpteen times to flip open my textbooks and lecture notes to drill the facts into my brain (or whatever that's left of it!). It does not help much that I am forever blur early in the mornings and all I can think of anytime before 11am is I WANNA GO BACK TO SLEEP! In spite I went to bed (relatively) early... Guess sleepiness is contagious! *wink wink*

I have even tried staying back in the library to look thru reference books and education material online. Ended up reading blogs.

To further accentuate my sense of desperation, I was studying in a group (with people I don't really like nor have anything to talk to about). I fell asleep. Thank goodness gracious that I didn't drool all over the library books.

At home? My room is soooo tiny I have hardly any space for much furniture. My 'study table' is cluttered with loads of things like facial care products, coins, letters blablabla... Can't find the motivation to clear it up. Hence, the only comfy place to study is on my bed. Surprise surprise. The first time I tried, I fell asleep 5 minutes later. The following day, 3 pages... Only to wake up and realise: OMG I forgot everything I read. How wonderful.

FAILED ATTEMPTS. MANY FAILED ATTEMPTS.

I. AM. A. BAD. STUDENT.

I. AM. A. BIG, FAT & LAZY. BAD. STUDENT!!!

Yet, I managed to do 2 BodyJam classes in 2 days. Talk about setting the right priorities.

However, I am soooo sure that if the subject in matter is The Boyfriend, my attention-span would be stretched by leaps and bounds. He may very well be the absolute cure to this Sleepy+Laziness-Maximus Syndrome afflicting me.

Haha, is there any doubt I'd be so "industrious and resourceful" while studying The Boyfriend?

Love is...

I have always portrayed the image of a 'playa'. Someone who prefers to flirt around and date casually. Not wanting to be bogged down with the messiness and complexity. Why trouble oneself???

Like someone said before, Love is just something people say to each other to get laid. And in the end, everybody gets hurt.

Truth is, I am a diehard romantic deep down.

ButI am was chronically overprotective of my heart. Having a rather perplexing dating history, you can't blame me, really! With the last heartbreak few months ago, I really wanted to give up.

That is, until my boyfriend came into my life. Swooning me and sweeping me off my feet, lyk completely. Making me wanna surrender me all... Lyk nothing's too much, too dear to give.



Although this may be hard and scares me so,

A life with you scares me more...


You've been waiting so long
I'm here to answer your call
I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about what I wanna do with you


When there's just you and me, just us two... I feel like there's no one else around.




Love is...


Love is... what I share with him. ;P

Just A Simple Note

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!!!