Screw It!

Possibly the 3rd WORST DAY of MY LIFE so far... yes, the top 2? Well, too graphic to be described.

Everything just went wrong and crashing down hill today. May be pleasing to me haters.

But I work well under pressure. So SCREW YOU!

Datelines to meet. Research papers to be sent with hopes of publication.

Bones to reduce. Exams to sit for. And somewhere along the way, try to find my life back.

Goodbye 2009! I am done with you!

Another...

I just came out to another friend.

Not that I was ever 'in the closet'; he'd always known I 'sway'... but this time, he gets an information overload of the deets.

We have been friends since forever, a decade or now. I just suddenly blurted out everything to him in the car. Been wanting to tell him about everything and I am happy that I finally did.

Phew! That feels good.

We're still bro's.


Now, back to delivering more babies.

Guess This Makes Me Sound Like a Girl

I have always thought of 'The Notebook' as one of the perfect love stories. Maybe, not total perfection, come one, which real romance is? But it shines through the flaws and perils of the relationship.

To show a love that is strong and never wavers. Something that is lasting. Something pure and eternal, so to speak?

And right before I head off to do MORE wardwork, yes, on a Sunday! *grunts* I shall just make a note of my favourite quotes from The Notebook.

Ah refer to the title of this blog and thou shall see the light!

Maybe I am too much of a drama queen but ohsoironic that these lines are somewhat synonymous to what I wanna say, or are rather applicable to my own love story?

LOL I know, pardon my overdose of mushiness. Oh well, just woke up missing The Hubby superduperuber much la okeh!



"So it's not gonna be easy.
It's going to be really hard;
We're gonna have to work at this everyday,
but I want to do that because I want you.
I want all of you, forever, everyday.
You and me... everyday. "


"Do you think our love can make miracles? I think our love can do anything we want it to."

I love you.

Be Right Back

Hello!

I guess I haven't been updating much, it's almost like I have disappeared off the blogosphere. But gah, 4th year of med school is getting to me... Okay, who am I kidding? Haha just trying to tell myself, I NEED TO WORK HARDER!!!

In a nutshell, I am doing fine. No more drama in my life, at least as of now. Still very much attached to and in love with The Hubby. 37 months and counting... He has been nothing short of amazing. *blushes*

I am doing Paediatrics now. Lotsa lotsa free time, spent playing with the babies and little kids. It's such a surprise that I am having fun in this block.

Now, life would be perfect IF I didn't have that crazy research project to finish. Ah the huuuggeee sample size needed. And effing SPSS!

3 Years

It has been an adventure huh?

Look how far we've come. Through all the trials and tribulations.

We've survived and became stronger.

When all around us fell apart, we stuck together.



The little things you do. The sweetest things you say. The silliest smile you make.

Everything just sweeps me off my feet. Again and again.

Nothing makes me happier than just being next to you, hubby. And I know we have a lifetime to share. ;)


Thank you for loving me for me along with all my drama-mama moments. *kesian...*


I love you dear. You complete me.

Guess life has taken its toll on this blog.

Gotta wait till I get this rollercoaster ride... or at least, a pitstop?

Or if I have actually something 'happy' to blog about.

Hugs, people.

=)

The Big Fat Gay Collab!

Found this on youtube... and well enjoy!



My life has pretty much been routine and uninteresting lately. So yeah, major cause for blogger's block. Hope everything's going great for everyone!

Tata for now! =)

pinkdot.sg

I am loving this video =)




Thanks to Cheryl (who most likely won't ever read this blog) for the link...
Thanks for pledging yourself to the pinkdot event...
Thanks for giving me the honour of being the first gay friend in your life!
Thanks for accepting me beyond the stereotypical labels.
Thanks for the love.

Dear Hubby!

Dear hubby

My darling hubby wubby

These words, in prose they lay

Drafted on the ELITE highway.

My friends gave us a label

We’re an “old married couple”

We’ve been together for so long

Complete with a bimbotic theme song.

Amazing how we’ve grown

Better together we’ve shown

How did I ever get so lucky?

To snatch a hunk beyond sexy!

Oh this is bliss

Sealed with a sloppy kiss

No I don’t hear a sound

And my feet flew off the ground.

Damn this is too much

How I long for your touch

Waking up to your smiling face

Us entwined in a warm embrace.

Aww shucks!

The distance between us sucks

But what we share can’t be shattered

Through greater storms we have weathered.

MSN, GTalk and Skype

We’ve hopped onto the bandwagon hype

Me overworked and whining away

Your company just brightens up my day.

Hearing your sexy voice so deep

Kissing a picture of you before I sleep

Guess I am silly that way

Seeing pink in shades of gray.

Love is not love which alters

When it alteration finds

Learning through our falters

Beautiful in its imperfections, our story shines.

I miss you, baby

Lotsa love from your hubby!

For longer than forever

This I vow yesterday, today and always.

Let's All Say YUMMM!!!

I love to eat. A lot.

I have been known to travel great distances in pursuit of amazing culinary experiences. And surviving countless crazy infuriating traffic jams. And the lack of carparks. And tolerating pissy waiters/managers/owners.

Yes, impossible is truly nothing. Hardly any obstacle can stay in my pursuit of filling the tummy silly.

And the past weekend has been nothing short of an elaborate dining adventure. =)

Hainanese Chicken Chop!
(some random kopitiam but oh-so-the best lah)
RM3.50

Sri Nirwana Maju BANANA LEAF RICE!
RM 5.00 (I think?)
Damn nostalgic... aww

Kensington Seremban's Seafood Platter
RM40.00
The prawns are OMG-amazing!

Kedai Makanan Seremban (whaaaaat a creative name eh?)
Original Recipe Roast Crabs 3KGs!
RM119.00

Wagyu Beef Cheeks (how luxurious!)
Housemate's Sous Chef BF
Free-of-Charge

Yes, I am behaving like I can't care less for my health. Yes, I think I am an obese fag. Yes, I need to find time to work out more and be able to seduce the hubby and perform kinky experiments in bed.

But surprisingly, I have been losing weight, without much effort since I moved here. =)

Ah blame it all on my erratic, lifeless, communist-inspired schedule. I am actually looking forward to weekends, for some sitdown study time.

I must be going mad.

More Songs on Love

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu...

=)

I just had to add it onto this post! I still can't believe Aizat was on Akademi Fantasia =S

berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku, kau irama terindah...

The Housewarming

When Joshy throws a party... everybody joins in the merriment!

At least everybody who was invited. Ah including those who had to do nightshift in the wards, oh for a little while. Well, even our next door neighbours came =)

Let it be known that Joshy boi can still throw a mean party. Never mind that I am now in Seremban.

Fabulous habits die hard.

That fine Saturday, I was just strolling in Pavilion after my tooth extraction. Gah! [Oooh there's Sales in Tangs!] And I passed by J.Co... and I thought, "DONUT PARTY!!!" I frantically called my housemates, "Let's do this tomorrow! Bring some life to our community!" *just because I felt like it*

Our conference call ended with, "Okay, set to go!"

Thus I drafted the text invite,

"Housewarming party tmr 8pm. My place. Feed yourself first. Only snacks and booze served." [SEND TO ALL!]

And soon it spread like wildfire! Within the own small community that we are here, in clinical school.

Nothing like early bird gifts to ensure punctuality. Godiva gave us the extra boost!


Food. Music. Booze. Gambling Games. Laughter.

Oh I shall not forget the magic of playing mahjong on a tiny coffee table and TAP TAP REVENGE!!! And drooling over CLEO's 50 Eligible Bachelors. Wait, I stand corrected. Just 3 of them. And I like, know 2 of them personally.


I had so much fun planning! And it was great having housemates who were equally enthusiastic and so accommodating of my crazy impulsive decisions. We even had a housemates' dresscode* which is a bit cornier-than-a-cornfield, I'd admit. But that was loved by our crowd. And that made all the difference. Oh yeah!

Good lighting really helped set the ambience. I was like flabbergasted when I saw the pictures taken.

"Wah, our living room never looked this warm and cosy!"

At the end of the night, everybody went home a little bit drunk, bloated and fingers hurting (Tap Tap Revenge 2 Tournament on my iPod touch!!!)


Tonnes of pictures were taken (and already up on Facebook!) as it is a result of the natural instinct of our generation.

Can't hardly wait till the next one! =P

*yes, an extremely gay gay gay thing to do

I feel a tad dumber

... cos I just lost a wisdom tooth. As of 11.30am today.

I am talking funny. I can only consume cold and liquid food items. I can't have chocolate.

Ouch!


So I went shopping. =)


And cooked up a plan for a party tomorrow, before the onslaught of a new week befalls us. It's kinda my trademark to do such things on impulse.

Ah well, lotsa time to work through the details. And to take my mind of the the persistent pain where a tooth used to be.

Wish me luck!!! =P

Good Good Day!

I don't know if it's actually a problem...

But I am actually liking Family Medicine (aka General Practice) waaayyy more than I ever expected!

Okay, getting answers right does motivate me much! And the occassional, rare praise from lecturers.

So I had just finished performing an ECG on an uncle, and was on my way back to the teaching clinic...

And there she was, an elderly Chinese woman, frail-looking, slightly kyphotic, with a walking stick right in front of the elevators. Her tears were welling up.

She looked up at me, and proceeded to grab my forearm.

Me: Yes, auntie?
Auntie: Boy, can you bring to the laboratory? I need to trace my reports. The doctor sent me up here to get it myself. My knees are in pain.

And then the tears kept pouring.

Me : *OMG OMG OMG!!! What did I do? What to do now?*
Auntie: My son is useless. His wife is heartless. They don't care about me. I am sick and nobody cares for me. I had to come to the clinic myself, all alone.
Me: Are they busy at work?
Auntie: NO!!! Today they have a day-off work. And they just don't care.
Me: I am so sorry, Auntie.

As we slowly walked to the laboratory department, she wailed. The crowd stared at me.

OMG!

Auntie: Nobody cares about me. I am going to die soon, and rot without anyone knowing.
Me: Don't be so sad, Auntie. You must take good care of your health! You must love yourself more.
[Corny, I know!]

I let her sit in the waiting area while I enter the lab to beg for the auntie's report.

Later, I walked her down to the Outpatient Department to see her doctor.

Auntie: My son is useless. He doesn't care about me. His wife is evil.
Me: Err... may be they have issues?
Auntie: They make me work at their bakery and care for their baby. But I get nothing in return. They treat me like rubbish.
Me: Err...

*Enter the Doctor*

Doctor: I very angry at this auntie!
Auntie: *cries somemore* Why you angry at me, Dr? I didn't do anything to you!
Doctor: I joke only, Auntie! Don't cry. I am worried because you always skip your appointments.
(err, bad timing for a joke?) Boy, tell this auntie... Blablabla.. medical jargon... blablabla... She is very lucky to have met you, boy! (Aww! *blushes*)

Then, I ran up to different departments to set the dates for her follow-up appointments for the upcoming months, collect her medication for her, gave her some 'patient education' material etc.

And I was practically her walking stick for the whole hour. Which involved me walking very veryyyyy slowwwwlllyyyy...

Auntie: I believe that people who do good will run into nice people who will help them. I do a lot of donations. Hehe!
Me: Yes auntie! Good karma?
Auntie: You have been such an angel to me, today! Come come, I give you the card to my son's bakery. I will give you a free Butter Cake when you come, since you have helped me so much today!
Me: It's okay Auntie! You're welcome! *beaming smile* Hehe!

As I was about to leave her and return to the teaching clinic...
Auntie: Is this your ID number on your tag?
Me: Yes. It's to identify me as a student.
Auntie: *took out a pen and started scribbling on her newspaper. THE LAST FOUR DIGITS OF MY ID NUMBER!*

Auntie: Do you have a car?
Me: Yes, Auntie. I drive to the hospital/clinic.
Auntie: Can give me your carplate number?
Me: Auntie, you want to buy 4D ah? Strike lottery ah?
Auntie: Ya you also know ah? I feel very lucky today to have met you ma. Must try my chance.
Me: Okay Auntie. You take care okay? I have to get back to my class.
Auntie: Goodbye nice boy. I wish you every success in becoming a great doctor. I can see it in you already.

Me: *OMG I feel so shy shy leh!*

This experience totally made my day!!! =)

Great reminder as to why and what am I doing here in med school!!!

The experience just keeps getting harder, better, and the drive all the more stronger! Don't hate me, B!!!

The oddest thing was it all happened a few hours after I read Little Dove's latest post, right before I left home in the morning. =)


P.S. Half of Seremban had a major blackout just this evening!!! Even the streetlights were off!!! We nearly had to have dinner in the dark (there wasn't even a single candle at the restaurant we wanted to dine at!) Haha, good thing there is Aeon Jusco in Seremban 2!!!

Thanks again for dinner and the great company, buddy! =) Get me goodies from London alrighty!!!

Better Days - Jimmy Kane

You're always on my mind. ;P

Blunder #1

Today, as I was clerking a patient (with half my mind astray) I committed a huge mistake.

"Auntie, are you STILL married?"
(enquiring about marital status)

It totally exacerbated the auntie's bulging eyes.


My bad.

Without a doubt, I kena kao-kao from the supervising lecturer! HAHAHA!


FYI, she was really hyperthyroid.


P.s. I think I got winked at repeatedly by a senior paediatrician around campus. Mega-stroke for the ego! HAHA!

Today's a beautiful day to save lives!*

So let's get to it

Alright.

So I have been a resident of Seremban for the past … erm 3 weeks? Can’t say that I know this place all that well just yet. Heck, with my daily routine being home-campus-hospital-district clinic-food-home-comatose!

Haha I find consolation in knowing that mr. drownedglass is here as well, at least on weekdays. =) and there is company to find good food with =)

Yeah yeah. I am guilty of escaping the heat and humidity that is pathognomonic of this rustic dusty town, come the weekend. To where else but KL… where there are people who love me and more people who desire the sacrilegious inferno of my mortal soul.

Ah thank goodness there is such a thing as a SHOPPING! And credit cards…

Anyhoo, yes I am loving clinical rotations. Draining long hours clerking patient after patient, late night calls (for duty, instead of booty), mountainous piles of case reports to write and being reprimanded/scolded/bitched at without mercy. Hmm, not so loving that last bit just yet.

My spirits are still high and all gay. I may appear to be a walking zombie garbed in a white coat at like 7 a.m. but all that changes when I meet my first patient of the day.

Sure, we learn signs and symptoms, differential diagnoses and recommended management plans from all the ward work. That totally rocks!

But what truly keeps me going (and practically beaming) are their life stories and all the random yakkity yak which never cease to amaze me. =P

“..let this be upon my honour and dignity… now I go forth unto my calling…”

P.S. IMHO this post is pure gibberish… I am not having a cogent line of thought right now… cos it's a happy happy happy but long yet uber good day at the outpatient clinic, playing a Family Doctor.

*The inspiring surgical lecturer’s mantra to start his day!

Goodbye KL!

So this is it. In exactly half an hour, I shall begin my drive down south to the town (city?) of Seremban, where I shall be, for the most parts, in the forthcoming 24 months.

YES, 2 YEARS!

This really is the lake right outside my street!

Moving is such a bitch!

Oh yeah, thanks to all you people who were kind enough to have 'parties' in view of this. My dreaded departure from KL.

Damn you people who are celebrating the good riddance of moi!

I joke. The last one ended just a few hours ago. A movie night, 'Changeling' supposedly, at S's place. But we ended up chatting like the gay bitches guys that we are and Wheeee... it developed into a Gossip Girl screening. Thanks B and JD, especially the gracious host, S! =)

On my drive back to Sierramas (in the wee hours of the morning), I had flashbacks of my time here. You know? Like that thing that happens right before you DIE! Haha

All the great beyond fabulous friendships I have formed here; in university, friends of friends who lessened that extra one degree of separation, blogger friends etc. You know who you are! *winks*

All the money I blew away at the malls! Just doing my part to generate the economy! Haha and on toll fare!!!

All the crazy things we have done and places we hung out (destroyed!)...

Most importantly, I met the love of my life in this city! *swoons*

And I bade farewell to the LDP! Sunway Pyramid! 1U! The Curve! Ikano! And the city lights!

I *heart* KL!

Haha but then again, we can save the drama, I will be back next weekend!

Lost in Translation

So yesterday, I found myself, driving Mummy Dearest and two other aunts on a roadtrip to Bahau, Negeri Sembilan (somewhere in the core of Central Peninsular Malaysia). They wanted to visit some long-lost elderly relative.

I swear I never even knew the place existed prior to the trip.

The route there was extremely winding and tricky. I even saw ferocious-looking monkeys (apes?) by the sides of the road. Scary. But miraculously, by some twist of luck or rather my mum's impeccable memory (her last visit here was over 25 years ago), we found the relative's house.

Naturally, all the 'aunties' (my mum included) started recollecting the past, sharing grandmother stories and some catching up.

Relative: Eh I last saw you before you went overseas to study right? Where you studied ah?
Mum: I went to Columbia University.
Relative: COLOMBIA? There they have very famous coffee hor? Cheap or not?

*faints*

After clearing things out with her that Columbia and Colombia are not one and the same...

Relative: Ohhhh, so what did you study there?
Mum: I did a degree in Biology.
Relative: BUY-A-LOJI*??? (loji = plant in Malay) Wah you very expert now in buying loji-s ah? I never knew needed to go to university to buy them. So how many loji-s you have now???
Mum: No, auntie... Biology is the study of animals, plants and humans. The science of living things... *and she went to elaborate...*

And somehow the topic switched to me...

Relative: Wah your son so like giant already. So big boy. (gasp!) What's his name?
Mum: Some call him Joshua.
Relative: JOS-HUA? CHO-HUA (make flowers? in Hokkien) Why la name him that? Want him to grow up become farmer or florist is it? Tsk tsk.

She must really hate me. =(

Relative: Your car so small. 4 people sit somemore. If somebody farts, you all sure faint and collapse. Then how?

Grr...

I think my mum adores my hubby more than she loves me.

Grr.

I do feel sidelined at times. She asks about him and updates all the time.

Me? "I got no time for you-lah, boy!"


She will suddenly fire up and say things like:

"Why can't you be more like (the hubby)?"

"He is such a good influence on you. Makes you behave!"


And the worst hit, "I wonder what does he see in you!" *flashing sinister smile*


I guess I have to be grateful that The Mummy and The Hubby don't hate each other. =)

LOL Nostalgia...

Looking back thru the pages of my highschool yearbook (specifically the one in Form 5, where I was Editor-at-Large)...

Tonnes of sweet memories of our Mean Guys Gang, having personal assistants to buy keropok lekor for us (saves time queueing up at the canteen), crashing the proms of other schools, all the illegal racing on the expressways and having nasi lemak in class, while the rest of the school were at the assembly grounds and among other naughty naughty things. ;P

On another side of things; the time when I played competitive archery in the ASEAN School Games, the many many times we had hotel stays although our homes were a stone's throw away, the time our gang organised a project with 1000% profit (You read that right!!!) and all the crazy drives to Ipoh just for a dimsum breakfast!

Yes, we were all cuckoo teenagers with the hormones on overdrive.

I miss high school!!! =(

But the funniest thing has got to be my profile page.

Joshy - Voted Perkiest Butt in the Senior Class 2003!


ROFL! I totally forgot all about this.

But at least, I didn't win something like "Most Irritating Person of the Year" or "Most Gangsta". Thank Goodness! =)

I have to behave...

... and not party so hard.

Life back in good ol' sunny Penang has been great so far. Never been back for such a long break since forever and now I remember what I have been missing all this while being away.

It's probably sounding a little immature-plus-irresponsible but me, and the few buddies who are still bumming here awaiting our holidays to end, are living it large as we did when we were 17.

Young, carefree, careless and OMG wild.

Surprisingly, we still have a reputation going on (albeit a dying one, seeing that we are dinosaurs by definition in the local youth community) But of course, one can say that this island is so small that it is impossible that people don't know each other.

Honey, so wrong.

In what may seem like an idyllic beach holiday destination to the world, it isn't exactly a bed of roses to grow up in.

Here, you are either somebody OR nobody.

And it ain't easy being in either camp. From what I see, things are getting increasingly malignant. Think Gossip Girl and 90210 but more violent. Less fiction.

But yada yada yada. This can be extrapolated to be like a textbook. More on it next time.

I digress yet again.

I have resolved to not use up all my time being a social moth (cos I ain't nowhere as colourful as a butterfly) and throw those pageant-worthy hi-bye waves with a megawatt-smile more judiciously. Party less, sleep more, save up the ka-ching cash... and hopefully start on a little geeking out and actually study! [cos having too much fun for way too long can actually be kinda tiring and the bad B word]

But then again, I am booked all the way to Chap Goh Meh!

Ah darn, I guess the 'good boy' resolution can wait.


p.s. Hope everybody's having a blast of a wonderful time as well, no matter where you are. Soak in the sun, drink, be merry and stay all the more jolly! =P

Kung Fu Fa Cai!

I mean, Gong Xi Fa Cai and Happy Chinese New Year, everybody!

And to those who don't celebrate the coming of the Lunar Year of the Ox, Happy Holidays to YOU too!!!

Joshy is going on a short hiatus-slash-break from blogging for the next few weeks.

Reasons are as follows: (LOL, sounds like a documented report eh?)

1. Ugh. Never thought I'd complain about holidaying but yeah, it's such a hassle packing-unpacking-repacking for different trips.
2. I am gonna be moving to a new place by March. New start. New environment. Goodbye KL!
3. Well CNY IS the time to be spent with family, collecting angpows, stuffing up on great guilty indulgences and for me, catch up on MY SLEEP!

But fret not, I will still be reading up on other fantabulous blogs whenever I get the chance to. And probably there may some short posts if I encounter anything interesting. So y'all take care of yourselves, drink and be merry, party wild and hard!

I will miss you guys-n-girls! =P

Dot dot dot.

Gosh. This is weird.

I just received a mail from The Ex's Ex. (both are from like aeons before)

And he is visiting my hometown, Penang sometime next month and wants to hang out.



Surely, I am more than willing to show him around town (not that I am very much aware of the tourist attraction spots) and bask in the glory of a great host worthy to boast.

But this is like awkward.

We don't share any animosity and we do acknowledge each other's existence in a very civil manner. Hardly friends though; more of like acquaintances I reckon. He really is a nice guy and sensitive blablabla all that jazz.

So yeah I don't mind meeting up with him and be a tourguide... but, but, but... I don't know what to say to him. To maintain a fulfilling conversation.

What now?

YES to hanging out and probably be better friends? Plus being a good spokesperson for my town?

or

NO, make up some excuse about not being available and continue moving on with our respective lives; with the occasional "Hey just checking if you are still alive!" scribbling on facebook walls.


I honestly don't know.

SOS! Help? Anyone?

I'm Back

It is not easy being a globe-trotting* himbo.
(p.s. I use 'globe-trotting' very loosely in this instance.)


But it helps having great traveling mates. With your iPod blasting amazing tunes.

Also, a credit card when you run out of cash! =P

And phonecalls from the love of your life to warm the cold nights. Aww.


Gotta re-pack for another trip next week kinda bums.

2009 seems to be great thus far. There be greater things to be done here. Be done with nostalgia. We have got a whole life waiting for us ahead.


Love.

Only In Malaysia

How cute right? I never knew the local hospital functions as the SPCA as well? lol

How truly-uniquely Malaysian!

I just had the craziest exams ever... (I must say that the presence of external examiners there truly elevated the stress levels, aihhh all in the name of Quality Assurance)

Tomorrow's the last day and thereafter I shall be a free man! For 7 weeks or so...

And I need to figure out how to spend the time fantabulously... I can't afford to go on holiday for 7 weeks! Any other suggestions?

Probably I should tweak this blog a little bit huh? But I am such a noob la at techy stuff. Anyone wanna help joshy out?


Alrighty.

Have a cheerful and productive week ahead! (or whatever's left of it!)